I have been busy with classes and Uni lately.
This explains the lack of updates despite the thousands of thoughts and contemplation I have playing in my mind.
God knows how many unposted entries are saved in my laptop‘s drive!
*phew*

The 2nd week has already come to an end, but somehow I feel a bit unsettled.
I’m still trying to adapt to daily morning classes and soon tutorials will start, this equals to me having lesser time to myself.
*sighs*
One of the changes I feel this new semester is that I truly look forward to “me” time, which I’ve been having more of lately.
It’s so vital to keep me sane!
I still have to work on my time management to fit in everything I want to do… and my problem is that I want to do too much.
I want to :
[x] attend every class on time. Prepared.
[x] spend my evenings in the library to study or read up on stuff.
[x] make time for catching up with friends.
[x] make time to go out.
[x] make time to exercise.
[x] get more involved with my interests.
[x] get organized, in everything I do.
…. These idealistic ambitions are easier typed than done, really.
I find myself getting more tired than usual, so I kind of sleep a lot after/between classes… which results in me staying up later than usual.
Yes, I have a weird biorhythm and 24 hours is just not enough in a day to atleast revise!
There’s this article I read somewhere which says that an effective person is able to have 25 hours worth of things done in a day.
*ponders*
Okay, fine.
So I’m not much of an effective person ;p
But I am in the process of trial and error.
So, we’ll see how far I can push my personal limit.

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I was reading the papers a while ago.
I don’t have the privilege to do this or much time to especially now, I only read online news.
I am shamed to admit that I don’t really keep up with local news as much because sometimes I only read to acquire input for debate matter.
I want to change this.
Anyway, so much is being discussed and happening at one time (as always).
I wanted to blog about issues which stirs me… but if I were to, I’d write a book worth of words here! (im serious)
Each time I read up on stuff, I realise how left behind I am of information and issues.
I feel so stupid.
So… incompetent.
One of my trainers used to assure us that it’s good to feel stupid.
In his words, “The moment you don’t feel stupid anymore, THAT’s when you should be worried”.
Haha… ;D
Thank you, Fareez.
Would you believe that quote made it into my top 10 life mottos?
=)

Oh, debates are going to start again soon.
Everyone seems to be participating in competitions but me! (well, this is not entirely true, but that’s how it feels to me ;p)
So that’ll guarantee a few upcoming self-kicking entries on bad debates and speeches =(
I’ll always be me eh?
;p

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Ah, I have to mention a discussion/lecture in Islamic World Review class which touched on the human’s degree of desires.
It’s funny how this varies from person to person.

If I were a free thinker, I would generally say it is the environment and education which contributes to the limits a person would set their desires to.
But as a Muslim, I have come to believe that it goes deeper than that. Whatever choices concerning desires one makes, really comes from the purity of one’s soul and strength of one’s beliefs.
It all comes down to each individual’s niyyahs.
The question I want an answer to is how do we measure our niyyahs?
What is its yardstick?

If you observe enough people,
We can have a religious person who is very well informed of the consequences of succumbing to negative desires could lead to...
But we still see them make decisions in opposed to the information they have in hand.
Yet,
We can have someone who isn’t aware or as aware of religious teachings and beliefs.
But has a higher resistance of potentially destructive desires within them.
So, what determines it at the end of the day?
Too many things, it is as subjective as it gets.
I can only try to understand.

There’s no definite line as to what limits anyone are capable of staying or exceeding.
But I’ve always believed one can try to take control of things and situations which comes their way regarding desires.

These are just my 2 cents on a sub topic I’m studying.
I am simply observing human nature… which I also have within me.
Hm, what’s my own niyyah like?
….
*ponders*

Well, have a good weekend, people =)

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