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Cute JoJo’s got a new single.
2006-08-31, 4:19 p.m.
I hope she stays around in the music scene instead of acting.
She’s good in both, I know.
But I find her music so adorable =)
Haha... yeah, I still fancy Pop stuff.
;p
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The mid semester break’s here =)
But my 7 days off is now cut down to only 2 days.
Why?
BTN (Biro Tata Negara) happened. It’s a compulsory 4 days, 3 nights camp for university students. So, I’ll be off to a camp in Terengganu tomorrow.
A lot of my friends decided to bail and not attend it this sem, but somehow I decided to get it over and done with this time around.
Why?
I want a change of view. I want to shake my perspectives a bit.
I just plainly want something new.
Getting shipped off to some camp may not sound like a holiday in paradise, but I think I’ve been lazing around and going through my days in Uni a too-laidback-mode lately.
Let me elaborate a little on that.
Ever since Uni (Gombak) started, I’ve lost a little of myself.
It’s my priorities.
I am not as focused.
I can’t put a finger as to what exactly caused this friction.
But, my mind rebelled on the “me” I wanted to remain.
I don’t like it...
I get less and less studious by the year.
I don’t know where that straight A student from school years ago went.
Some of my friends still have the same drive, where did mine go?
(Sharifah, Carlyn... help?)
It saddens me when my grade aims get lower after each quiz, test and exam.
It saddens me when I give up too easily when I don’t understand something.
Mom mentioned to me that this is the ‘typical Malaysian student syndrome’.
Where I get too comfortable with where I am.
So I take things lightly and for granted.
*knocks head*
I get distracted more easily.
I used to take everything that’s negative to motivate me to be better.
But now I allow them to drown me.
I allow them to take over me.
Now, I take on unnecessary stress upon myself to meet/exceed other people’s expectations in what I used to refer to as ‘shallow’ things.
I feel so superficial.
At the same time, I hate superficiality.
What a clash, huh?
I feel trapped.
It’s like I’m locked inside a labyrinth.
I keep running around to find a way out.
But I can’t seem to.
Maybe it’s me.
Maybe it’s other people.
I just don’t know.
I just need to escape for a while from routine.
That’s why I oh-so welcome change right now... for the better.
InsyaAllah.